Painting Abstracts March 13, 2012

i did a painting last night
abstract of course-well it began that way
i continued to add colour and than an image of a woman started to appear- a woman sitting comfortably…sitting in tall grass….not under a tree-although one could incorporate that with their imagination…cuz the potential of that imagery is possible
~aside -i feel that i always see women in my art…and sometimes faces of men as well- in one paiting i created, i see a woman (a face and shoulder line) although when turned upside down, i clearly see a long narrow-nosed man with a jokers hat or else others would say they see the face of a fox, or a fawn/deer’s head…hmm okay back on track here
…so i didnt mean for the theme i created in my painting, but as it progressed it became a woman in the grass holding up a flower in awe, rain pouring, smearing the sky, than brushed in blended yellow for the last touch up on the sky and it became a beautiful rain blasted day…like a beginning to spring- theres an innocence in the painting depicted with the smooth textures on the woman but the thicker painted sky depicts more depth and again a smooth fierceness that darkens the painting’s mood.
it takes me a while to look at the painting and create my opinion on it, that is-as soon as ive decided im finished it-its done now but as it was late when i got finished with it, didnt take too much time to look it over…plus, the room was dark- different lighting can create an alternative perspective on it i have not yet seen :/
im yet to loook at it upside down and see if i discover anything new!

i have not photographed this peice yet -soon to come-ill leave u in suspense

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DISC Profiling May 2, 2010

Has anyone participated in DISC assessment profiling?
It’s a big business in computing a persons personality while
exploring ones strengths and weaknesses and than rates your nature in 4 different categories…
It was offered to me and it sounds interesting but I feel that I am rather skeptical about it all
Just thought Id jot down this little thought so I can expand on it later after I have participated and maybe get some feedback from some people!

“” “The D.I.S.C. Profile Model

The DISC Profile is a nonjudgmental tool for understanding behavioral types and personality styles. It helps people explore behavior across four primary dimensions:

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Dominance: To the point, decisive and bottom line oriented. These people tend to be independent and results driven. They are strong-willed people who enjoy challenges, taking action, and immediate results.

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Influence: Optimistic and outgoing. They tend to be highly social and out going. They prefer participating on teams, sharing thoughts, and entertaining and energizing others.

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Steadiness: Empathetic & Cooperative. These people tend to be team players and are supportive and helpful to others. They prefer being behind the scene, working in consistent and predictable ways. They are often good listeners and avoid change and conflict

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Conscientiousness: Concerned, Cautious & Correct. These people are often focused on details and quality. They plan ahead, constantly check for accuracy, and what to know “how” and “why”. “”
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http://www.onlinediscprofile.com/

Thats the website

Who has a comment about it? > Is it plain common sense that is too hard to uncover by ourselves?

Help :) February 16, 2010

so i guess even with extensive computing knowledge, i havent yet cracked this internetting protocols and procedures for blogs

ive only started with this blog recently as i am boycotting facebook notes because id like to reach a random crowd who’d look at my writing more objectively-its more interesting this way so anyway…

i think i should be able to customize the little blurg beneath my blog heading name but as you can see, i dont know extensive tips and tricks of this kinda stuff (anyone whos reading could send me a shout and give me some little hints if you’d like- it would be much appreciated… than you wont have to look at a blog that looks so noob hahaha

ill keep this little post open for a while so i can add some more of my noob questions
…yes i know theres probably some kind of help option or w/e but my pure lack of desire to read through pages of words i do not understand  has halted this lil idea- i know i need some practice but some lil helpful hints and tricks would be my most favorable option…

ps. how do i insert pics within these posts…??

…  now i seek the help of fellow wordpress bloggers etc! so peeps, help me out some and ill add some spark to this lil blog of mine

Help!”

Sincerely: Blogger Noob<  haha apparently noob isnt a word…why isnt this website edited by urban dictionary? lol

karma karma February 8, 2010

Karma

prenote:
i wont be 100 grammatically correct
i wont follow all the rules
ill talk, you read
you’ll do fine
enjoy

Karma

people try to define it
what i have to say about karma is that it is simply a fact of life..but hear me out, i may not be getting at what you are thinking

i see karma synonymous with CONSEQUENCE

simply put: your actions, decisions, mental thoughts etc infinity- each has a consequence. weather you’d like to call this karma or just “life” its still essentially the same thing

as a side in this topic, id like to note the way ive seen some people try to define karma and the ways they deal with this thing they call karma…an example

-i have an annoyance with those who may think they are in control over someones “karma”.  those who make it their job to assure someone gets hit back by their actions….[]good Or bad[]… wont life alone do this? i mean, [abstract example] someone who is miserable their whole life
lives the consequence in being miserable… that alone describes living in bad “karma”
do we need to add to their misery?  its not our job to actively hand out karma-people have it coming as long as they’re alive

A person is the only one who knows themselves whole- You alone are the only one who knows your continuous thoughts, you know your own deceptive actions when no one else does-[ denial doesn't change a thing]

You choose your own karma, you make your decisions, you live your own life
if you want to blame it on karma-than look at it straight in the mirror

every action has an equal and opposite reaction
Other outlooks??? >>

The Complex of December December 17, 2009

december is not a month its holiday time. the days lack the sun so people have the chance to proccupy their minds with a distinguished mood.
get to the card shops and see what greetings are in store for you. You will find a multitude of greetings for every anal specifity. 

in december, people always make debate on its entirety. i am not even aware of the immensity of stir this month creates.

what defines u is everything u are
not one sole thing defines you, one sole thing, will only define itself. it adds a peice to your identitity puzzle part of your own complexity and uniquety.

how can one be so ignorant to suspect their identity would rely one aspect of idea.

life is an art

broken pin points December 17, 2009

im in facebook today and read this in a friend’s profile comment box
and this is what it says.

ZYNGA FACEBOOK POKER IS THE LAMEEST FUCKING GAYEST POKER SITE AROUND !!! I HAD 427 MILLION CHIPS NOW I GOT 8 MILLION LEFT !!! THE GAME IS FUCKING CURSED AND TOTAL LAME ASS BULLSHIT FUCK YOU ZYNGA U PIECE OF SHIT !!!

I looked at this and started to wonder how is it that facebook has created this medium for people.  and how people react with its existance. funny sHit.

it makes me laugh that people in this world have the capability of becomming so passionate.
some would call it a hilarity of sorts. 

and while at the same time, on a different note…sometimes i wonder in the opposition.

im mad at my landlords. they havent fixed the buzzer system provided in our building. Ive gone in 2 or 3 separate times to complain and nothing happens. i want to tell them off but i dont know how. i guess im being to nice to them and they’re taking advantage. 

Im mad at people in my class. more than anything.  i dont know how to handle this as ive been a hurdle im trying to jump for a while now

dear j October 27, 2009

Something i know now… just think about it

-sometimes when u see that someone comes to you about an issue, the very most important thing to do is to just sit there and listen with as much compassion u have….
it can upset people when they are interrupted by the listener asking for more details…
-this is because the person just wants to get everything off their chest without having to diverge into irrelvant facts… (i know you didnt do this on purpose, – but it set me off for reasons outlined above)

When someone comes to you about something, [and remember how upset as i was] they need you to just do that-listen…

You need to let the person let it all out- its about -them- [they are hurt, they need a shoulder, they need trust]
its not about you getting your questions answered right- (please dont
take this in the wrong tone either) maybe it was hard for u to comprehend how upset i was- i know u didnt mean to upset me either
-i was at a ranting hurt state where i wasnt in the midset of being able to calmly present my information…-im only human-
-also, if you ask someone a question they dont want to answer, respect it and let them explain later if they choose, its not like you have the right to know
and i mean, also when (you’ve lost all patience, your crying, and desperate) think of times where you meet your brink of frustration and have no one to talk to about it, and than you go to someone and pretty much, as selfish as it sounds, you are trusting them, and their heart because you feel they will be someone to listen to you and hear you

and most of all, understand their pain- thats what i needed… i saw u messaged me and i jumped on the oppurtunity to confide in you making you the first person to talk to when i was in the worst of pain… because you mean a lot to me and i felt you understand me in a way most people dont

…i tried to explain on the phone (today when u called) but u were prodding with grudge to get an apology right than and there!- it was a abrasive and hurtful
-to expect it like that makes me have no trust in your compassion
-im pretty sure you know i give an apology when its granted… and really, i didnt want to dive into that subject with the first words that came out of my mouth when u called me

–it doesnt work that way for me… i was trying to be patient but u started on me and i couldnt be calm anymore…
—-i guess it might be harder to have the patience to just sit and listen when the person is a sibling or w/e….

i sincerely..just want you to know this about me, how i communicate (how there are similarities like this in other people)
-would you agree that theres special types of people who are really good listeners…. and what makes them so easy to talk to?

Maybe you would agree that its rude to be asking me and expecting an apology from me as soon as i call you… it seemed you were too grudged up for me to even delve into an apology that i had on my mind

-When you personally think someone may deserve an apology from you, im sure it doesnt make you trust them if they do this same thing to you- deviously expect it

you need to let people find a time when they are comfortable talking with you to say what they may want to say-i think this deserving attitude is selfish and pompous- you cant judge a person when you dont understand them completely… u dont know what they have gone through and i beleive people like this deserve the chance give an apology with the comfort of knowing they wont expect a claw in the face following their apology
-if someone is apologizing with complete sincerety, dont you think they at least deserve that much?
-plus another thing that em and i talked about before, …sometimes you wont get the apologies-weather you deserve them or not is irrelavant…
-its not good to waste your energy
and some only strive to feel someones shame- those with malicious attitudes
-sometimes it makes you happy to forgive the person anyway-its a way of understanding and letting things go
-people will shit on you every day but do you walk around crying because no one is saying sorry? -if people want to be miserable its their own misery- like the people at work -some of them are miserable and what do i need to do, i dont need to plot revenge, i dont need to stoop to their level- i forgive and love them anyway… i stand my ground when needed but i dont vie for the satisfaction of seeing them hurt by getting back at them-if someone is that  stuck in misery, why add to it
–karma exists but its not under the control of people- and for some people, it seems; they try to justify their actions by doing something to contol someones karma- ie: ” Rawr! ill piss in her cereal today-and ill just call it karma”
karma doesnt mean “what goes around comes around, it simply synonyms the fact that theres always consequences for your actions.

i hope you understand what im getting at…i didnt want it to be in a letter but i needed to talk to you without an interjection….

i know u want an apology but first i need you to understand all that
i thought talking to you in person would be more fitting for this though

Thanks for hearing me out…just think about it if you dont completely understand-sometimes i dont know how to accurately explain the way i feel in a way for people to completely understand
^haha does that make sense
- i just know that i think very differently than other people sometimes